Wednesday, June 18, 2008

So many of us are sad right now

Yesterday, I got some devastating news about this wonderful lady, Paula, in my ward. I have known her since I was a teenager and she is absolutely awesome! She is the cutest grandma and so cute with the children in the ward. She taught Hudson in primary and is just so good with the kids. She always provides activities geared towards the children for our ward activities. She doesn't forget about the kids. I remember one time when Dalton was a new sunbeam and he said the closing prayer in primary all by himself. It was hilariously cute. The kids and adults were laughing and there was Paula giggling and I heard her say "that is the cutest thing I have ever seen!" It brought tears to my eyes because it was so darn cute! One time recently, she was substitute teaching Hudson's class and he was the only one there. He was going through his anger phase and she was so good with him. She is so good with kids!

Paula was diagnosed with terminal pancreatic cancer on Monday. I have known her and her family for years and even went to school with Troy from Kindergarten to 12th grade, but I have just recently become close internet buddies with Troy and Kelli, Jill, Keli, Meg and Paula. I have to say, they are some of the best people you will ever know. I don't know if you noticed, but Paula was the only one to comment on Mikaela's birthday post. She is so thoughtful. We went on both cruises with them to Mexico and Hawaii and they are so fun. Bishop Noorda was the bishop while we were in Podiatry school and residency and while Derrek was on his mission. He has always been good to my family and gave me great encouragement and advice during those stressful times. The whole family has also been super supportive of me during the most recent mess in my life and for that I am truly grateful. And so, my heart has been aching all day for them and I can't stop crying and wondering why. Her kids have expressed their feelings in their blogs and they are so eloquent. But, each time I read their words, I can't stop crying. I don't understand it. I don't understand why good people who are doing good things and influencing people for good have to leave us so early and why so many toxic crap-heads are out there contaminating the world! I hate it! I can't stand it!

One thing I do know is that life is fragile and life is too short! It's too short to worry and fight about the small stuff. We need to cherish each moment and make the most of it. We need to live in this moment. Life is too short to not be surrounded by people who truly love and care for you.

I just want the entire Noorda family to know how much my children and I care for you and love you all. We will be praying for you all. You are right, Cancer does suck!


Kelli said...

Thanks Larissa. It helps to hear stories of such a wonderful woman that has touched so many people. We love her so much. Thanks for the support.

Keli said...

Toxic crap-heads is going to be my word of the day.

Thank you so much for all the sweet thoughts. My mom will be so uplifted to read about how she has influenced you and your family. Just keep her in your prayers.

Hillary said...

It is so hard to have bad things happen to good people. Give my best to her family. My mom has been fighting cancer for the last two years and I know what a hard thing that could be. We were lucky in the fact that her cancer could be and was cured. But to have to watch your mom suffer at a young age is really hard.

I found comfort in knowing that if it was my moms time she had lived a good life and was spiritually ready.

I hope the best for Paula and her family.

Jill Johnson said...

Thank you! We have gone through that anger phase. Why Why Why, I am anxious to see what phase is next. The tears are dry and the tunnel vision is in full force. You ought to go see my Mom she will make you feel better. It works for us! Love you!